who am i writing this for?

Who am i writing this for? 
I always feel like im not sure who to write this for, no ones going to read it and who wants to know about my boring life?  I never know what to talk about or how to address it.  Should it be like a dear diary thing or should i be a third party deal... anyway.

i have tried to write a blog about a lot of things and i always end up deleting it.  Im not good at this.  I dont know how other moms share everything on blogs, i read blogs about other families and the struggles they have and the happy times and just other randomness in the lives.  What do i share?  I have 6 week old twins, LG & MQ that i cant take out with me, cant show off other than in photo's.  A 4 year old LJ that is too smart for his own good and an 8  year old AA that im pretty sure hates being here, between the stress of newborn twins and LJ drawing on the walls because i havent been able to give him the attention he deserves and needs from me and AA's attitude i feel like i am failing as a mom.  How do i juggle all of this.  I feel like i am letting my hubby down when he comes home to a disaster of a house.  I barely have time to eat let alone do laundry or dishes or clean up the front room or our bedroom.  How do mom's do it?  How do i do it?  I wish i had my mom to here to ask questions or to help. This is just stupid.

its always stupid.